T H E B E A U T I F U L F E A R
THE BEAUTIFUL FEAR is a self created term which represents the frightening, yet beautiful, changes required in life. The term also operates as a moniker and vehicle for my songwriting.
In 2008, lifted by a new friendship, I checked my instruments out of storage, dusted them off, and provided them a corner in my new apartment on Pierrepont Street in Brooklyn. Initially they made for nice looking, yet somewhat anxiety provoking, furniture. They reminded me of what I perhaps could/should have been doing. In time I started to regularly pick them up and reacquaint myself with how good it felt to have a musical instrument in my hands. As a form of unintentional therapy, new songs started to pour, but due to the lack of any kind of forum, the ideas evaporated as quickly as they had fallen to me. The subject of the songs however started to form a theme and a longing unavoidable question started to emerge. Through the writing I felt I could work towards the changes required of me to answer that question.
In 2010 I began to document, the unraveling, in a home studio that I had assembled. In 2012 I encouraged, a former bandmate, Carl Negin to also build a mirror studio in his attic in Baltimore with the plan that we would together, yet remotely, embark on creating a record from the material I was writing. With a commitment to the songs, and the project, we started in earnest. At first there was little desire or plan to make the works public, but overtime I have gradually felt increasingly compelled to share it.
"ONE' is the result to date, recorded in Brooklyn, Miami Beach, and Baltimore. The record is my musical memory/autobiography from 1999 through 2014, with various earlier recollections, dreams and reprises. The record is the "cine-manic"sound of challenge and change. The piece is made up of two parts, 10-11 songs each. A double album released in two installments.
Addicataclique background art work. 'Caprice" ( the falling nudes painting ) with kind permission from Harry Holland.
Memory collages and additional photography by THEBEAUTIFULFEAR